Lain Ehman had a wonderful blog post yesterday about the five things she loved but would never do. It really got me thinking about the way I beat myself up sometimes over the things I like, or wish for, but don't do. It's not that I can't, I just won't. I realized last month during LayOut a Day that everything we choose to do or take on or sign up for translates into something else we don't have the time , or energy, or money to do. It's a trade off, a balancing act. I'll probably never stop dreaming of these five things, but so far they haven't been worth the cost.
A Spotless House
I love it when my house is spotless and organized. It's really surprising that I can even remember that, though, since it certainly doesn't happen often. It usually involves an upcoming visit from my in-laws. I think a lot about how nice it would be if the house were immaculate, as I look over the crumbs on the counter and the carpet that needs vacuumed. But then I think about the football game that's on, or the scrap project I'd like to be working on, and I realize the house is just fine the way it is.
To Be a Runner
I see these people running along, and they look so healthy and athletic. I hear runners talk about how great it is for stress relief and how once they get into the habit of running they truly want to run and feel bad if they don't. I want to be one of those people. I want to want to run every day and feel healthy and athletic...but I don't. No matter how much I wish for it I just don't have the athletic ability or the body type to be a good runner. So I'll just continue to be envious of those who do.
Cook Gourmet Meals
I actually love to cook, when I have the time and ingredients to make something I can be proud to serve. Unfortunately that isn't very often. Most of the time it's late and I'm tired from work and we just throw something together, or go out to eat. Funny though that I'm the only one who minds. Everyone else eats the old standbys like spaghetti and tacos and rarely complain. In fact, if I served something wackado like in this photo my kids would probably refuse to eat it. I still love the idea of making beautiful and delicious culinary masterpieces for my family though.
Be as Thin as a Model
I think alot about how fabulous it would be to be really thin. I don't mean thinner, I mean really thin. I even hired a personal trainer and went to the gym off and on. Problem is, what do I give up to do it. I love good food, it makes me happy. I love spending time with my family and friends more than going to the gym. And no matter how long or how often I go I never love it. I'm just not an athletic person. So I guess I'll just have to be happy with thinner.
And last but not least I have one in common with Lain (and about half the other women my age).
Have Another Baby
Yes, I really do want another baby. Actually I want another 5 year old, but I guess you have to start somewhere. I miss school programs and little guy sports and hugs from chubby little arms. Problem is I wasn't a great pregnant person in my 20's, I most certainly would be a nightmare now. I don't have the patience I use to, or the energy. I'm sure my husband it right, it's a better idea in my head than it would be in reality. Problem is the idea is in my heart and not my head.
So what are your five?